I've been here before,
I recognise the pain,
familiar and
welcoming
like an open bottle in a quiet place.
The rules where meant
to keep me out, stop me
coming back here.
But then I ignored the rules.
I let myself become involved
I didn't walk away
allowed myself to
trust
opened my mind, revealed my hand.
Now I've summoned up
old memories
of forgotten feelings.
Ghosts to
hold me in this place.
Phantoms of who I was
returning to remind me
of why they made the
rules.
Of the pain that went before.
Wrapping my pain within me
slowly I dispel the
phantoms and my
feelings
recall my rules and leave this place.
Leave the memories, I keep here
secret locked away
grow colder once
again
until my next transgression
